I wish I lived closer so that I could come to a meeting. I am heartbroken. I think I have been for a very long time. I crave the love of my significant other so much that I have put my emotional and pyhsical safety at risk. I am nearly destroyed and I can’t let him go although he has harmed me, minimized me, degraded me, shamed me, and abused me. I panic at the thought of him leaving me. I have abandonment issues.
We don’t live together, not even in the same city. We see one another on weekends and trips that are planned. So when things get bad, I can’t reach him. I am alone. I am scared. I am anxious. I miss him. I want to let go. I need to let go. I can’t.