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I didnt think love was for me, even though I wished for it on my birthday but four days later I met a boy and it felt so real.

We “met” online even though we went to school together and had a bunch of mutual friends but the connection felt so real.

We started hanging out every day after our first interaction, I even met his family during the first week.

It felt like it was happening so fast but when you know, you just know.

Let me tell you being with him was probably one of the best experiences of my life.

I love him and he loves me.

I never thought that timing would be what ruined us though.

We both work so much, deal with so many family issues, our puppies, and school were all on our plates on top of trying to balance time with all of our friends and now here was this beautiful consuming relationship and it was just such hard work.

I love him so much and he loves me so we kept trying, because why would we not be together no matter how exhausting it got?

Love is supposed to conquer all.

Soon movie dates ended up being one of us falling asleep first and phone conversations were constantly interrupted with yawns.

We never fought but you could feel the tension and resentment building up little by little.

In amidst of tears and shouts and pleading we decided, something had to give and we knew for now it meant we had to end it.

If its meant to be, it’ll be right?

Everything happens for a reason, in its own timing and I really hope so because I have never felt this empty.

I miss my boyfriend but being his best friend right now hurts so much because all I want is more.

Just more time, more love, more memories.

Posted in Heart Break.