I don’t even know how to begin. My love life has just turned into such a mess. There are two guys. Derek is my big… I think. Greg is a guy I met recently and fell in love with. Derek and I dated in college, he broke up with me, then stringed me along for a year. I was so in love with him that I fell under his manipulation all the time. I met Greg through a mutual friend at some point in the stringing along phase Derek and I had. Greg and I ended up falling for each other. I was so happy and I really did fall in love with him. Then Derek came back into my life and told me he still loves and wants me back. He said this four months ago. It shocked me, I wasn’t sure if I was still in love with him. Whenever he comes back into my life, he just lures me in. I used to think its because we have such a great connection, but now I’m not sure if it was manipulation. After these long four months, I told Greg the truth about how I am confused. Of course he didn’t take it well and now Greg and I are on a break. But the thing that hurts me the most is that Derek freaked out when I had the conversation with Greg and went back on his thoughts. He says he does love me but needs to think about being with me. Derek has a new girl in his life, who is perfect. But the fact that he still needs to think about things with me hurts. I am trying to understand where he is coming from, but I can’t believe I just threw away a life with Greg for someone who manipulated me again. I can’t believe I fell for it again.