He is the love of my life even if we don’t end up together. He is much older than me, also.
We broke up with our respective partners at the same time. His was a marriage, mine was a living-together situation. We first confided in each other about our current situation thru a lot of tears. We were our support system for the longest time, even going to the same therapist. Nothing EVER happened between us, but a mutual feeling arose thru all of this. We did not act on it I think out of lack of courage or maybe everything was just too raw and recent. Then, just when we felt strong enough as individuals, when he went and formally asked for a divorce, his wife wanted him back. Did not know how I truly felt about him until I heard the words come out of his mouth.
I supported him, just want him to be happy, even if it is not with me, even if I know she is not the love of his life. They went on to have the most beautiful kid. This broke my heart into a billion pieces, but also filled it with joy to see his dream of being a dad.
In the midst of all of this we have declarated our love for each other, been physical, and I can honestly say, I cannot imagine feeling this way towards anyone ever. The chemistry, the love, cannot put it into words. Everyday is a new challenge. We love each other deeply, and cannot be together. Have tried so much to be apart, with no success. This has been going on for almost two years, and for two years my heart has been hanging by a thread.
How can I give up on the greatest most pure love I have ever felt?!