Mandy

My boyfriend of 5 years broke up with me exactly one month ago. He said he didn’t love me anymore, and couldn’t see himself marrying me. He wanted to be happy. I was completely blindsided, we hardly ever had problems and in my eyes it couldn’t be better. We lived together for almost 4 of those years. I moved to two different states for him. We bought a house together. We had pets together. It was wedding season, we had been to three so far this year and he was the best man for one two weeks from that day. He actually broke up with me on the 5 hour drive home from a wedding in another state. He must have been thinking about it a lot lately, but the weird part is I never once pressured him into anything. I mentioned marriage one time in our entire 5 years together, and that was over 2 years ago. It has been the hardest 30 days of my life, even harder that he seems so much happier now, even relieved. I’m waiting for the day I don’t break down and cry every hour. He’s all I can think about, and why I wasn’t good enough.