Madison – HEART BROKEN ANONYMOUS

Madison

I met someone and I felt like the world was put together just by looking at this person. I thought for sure I had found my soul mate. We dated for over and year. He was in the marines and we went through a deployment together, and made it through so strong. When he got home he asked me to be his wife. This was everything I had always wanted. I was getting my happily ever after I had so so badly dreamt of. That Christmas I told him I wanted to enlist in the Air Force. I thought since he was about to get out in a few months that he would support this. I had been through so much with him in his military career. And this was something I had always wanted. He told me if I enlisted he’d leave. That he wasn’t going to be my “dependa”. I shook the thought out of my mind and let that dream die. So I could the wife he wanted. Things started getting rocky after that. A month later my grandpa, and the man who practically raised me was in an accident. They found a massive tumor pressing on his spine. Within a few weeks he was getting worse and worse. Before my last visit with my hero, he asked me to call my fiancé. He wanted to speak to him. The last thing I heard my papa say was “thank you for taking care of my girl.” I immediately started crying. A week later he passed away. I was devastated. I couldn’t eat, and I couldn’t sleep. My fiancé took my grieving as me not paying attention to our relationship and me not appreciating him. So he broke up with me the night of the funeral. That was February and now it’s May and he hasn’t spoken a word to me since. I enlisted in the Air Force a week ago. My papa was an Airman. I know he would be so proud of me for doing this. But my heart still hurts. He promised me his life, he asked me to be his wife. And he left me when I needed him the most. I still don’t understand. I fear I will never get closure. I try to never be angry. And to treat everything like a lesson. But he took something from me. He changed me and made me into what he wanted. And for a long time I didn’t even know who I was. I’m still figuring it out. I’m still hurting. But I don’t want to be.

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