My husband and I lost our first child at 6 weeks pregnant. Even though it was early, the heartbreak is very real. I don’t know how to explain it, but the moment I found out I was pregnant, my entire mindset felt different. I felt a love for my little jellybean growing inside me that I’ve never felt before. Mother’s Day is this weekend and I’m completely dreading the Facebook posts of happy moms gushing over their children. It hurts my heart so bad. I’m looking forward to the day when it doesn’t hurt quite so bad, but 5 months later, it still feels very fresh.