I had been in relationships before ones that were merely puppy love, and nothing but feelings. But I had met my first love online my senior year of high school. And we were inseparable. We connected, we loved each other, and it was pure magic. Our relationship tragically ended two years later, and I thought I’d never love again. I slept around, met guys online, and felt that all romance was gone. So I settled. Flashforward to the summer of 2018, I truly thought I had met the love of my life. We met at a bowling alley with friends. And truly had a love at first site moment. We began going on dates, meeting each other’s friends and family. We understood one another, we loved one another, and everything felt right. The relationship was going by quickly but I felt it was love, not realizing he began getting cold feet. Our relationship ended over text, where he refused to meet in person and talk. He began saying he couldn’t be in a serious relationship and didn’t know what he wanted. After previously having told me he loved me, that I was his one, and that he wanted this. He wasn’t just some guy to me. My family and friends loved him. I loved him. And now I’m just trying to figure out how I’ll ever love again.